Fuck reunion

If you have a lover, how much attention you would give to him/her ?
Even they are not around you, would you always keep to text her/him or call them up to catch up ?
Disappointment, anger, sadness, upset, sour, broken.
Multiple emotions came in.
Because I care.

How much do you really care ?
With evidence of an hour reply one message, less than 30minutes called for a day, rejected your call just because parents around.
I cried because I care.
I leave because You don't care, it's show how stupidity am I.

You always said you give me the best, do you really do so ?
The best : not to accept call ? not to talk much in calling ? no time to text me ?
You said you hope I do.
Why always i have to do ?

If you don't care please let me go.
If you no confidence please let me go.
I am no important. That's what I really felt from you.
Heartbroken without heal. And you still keep punching.

another backstab

An angel lighten him/herself that's why angel can FLY.
There's only devil will do evil things behind GOD.

You as a nurse without a kind, passion heart and talk shit about people, who do you think you are ?

How great you can be as you always compare to people around you since you're not proud to be yourself ?

Faults, wrongs ?

It's nothing to do with you ! Nevertheless, please don't be a slutty bitch and backstabbing around.

Okay, I am wrong of doing this, but please think of it ! CI don't have the right of changing roaster so why at the end they still change and deploy us to other ward ? We're just student, can't just have a rest or holiday ?

Why must be so cruel ? You're not God for judging us and for my side, I got my opinion. Take you as a friend, but do you appreciate ? Thanks to Jesus, I found another bitch ! Let's be stranger :)

As a lover, seeing your partner bullied but what did you do ?

Saying that : You deserved that ! Who asked you to P****** ! 

Hey ! I told you my problem but what do I get ?

</3 You'll not know how i feel... ... You will not know... ... because till now you've not yet know me. 

Which way is right and which way is wrong ?
Just because You created order is a man and a woman
that's why we're wrong ?
As long as we're the creatures of yours, ain't You feel satisfy ?
We never did anything which is immoral and why can't You allow us to be together ?
WHY ? Everything is in Your hand, Lord. You shall see our future and You've the responsible to guiding your creatures (children).

Accept me, Lord ! Be with me still and holy spirit enlighten my way.
To show my future path and protect my love and I.

Dear my love,

Thanks for everything, seeing you losing too much just to be with me, unhappily crying. I've nothing to do for you. Almost one year we've been together. Thanks a lot for all the while of your love, care and responsible. I shall not cause you lose your family and I shall leave. I'm sorry. But there's no other way. I wish there's a world end at 21.12.12. So that, we can end all of this together.

The reason.

A side of me that you don't know. And I wish you could know.
There's many things I wish I didn't do. I never meant to do the things to you.
So I wish you could know. That I just want you to know.
I've found a reason for me, to change that I used to be.
A reason to start over new and the reason is You.


I am sorry that I hurt you.
I wish I could take it all away.
I am not a perfect person and I continue learning to love you.
That's why I need you to hear.


A reason for all that I do.
And the reason is You.

A fight with thousand of NO's

The love that you shown out without any selfishness and secretive to your mom. I need this.
What's the love from you to me ? You compared between me and you. Selective listener of your own chosen words from the sentence I've told. I am jealous, but you can't see. I am hurt and you don't know. Family outing always making you happy even you don't want to go at the very first point. And that's the thing I care about ! You don't know. I won't say. That's my way of living. You don't understand me that's why argument and quarrel appeared in our life. Sorry for not wiping away your tears anymore, sorry for not hugging you anymore. I'm sorry for all. Crying and hurting can't make me wiping or hugging. No one know.

P/s argument and quarrel will just continue happening if nothing have been taken action.

很辛苦，心很不舒服，很酸...你懂吗？
等你，一直等待，我哭着...你懂吗？
我不重要了，你没像以前那样对我了...
没一直的打电话，也不会关心我没和你联络...
哈哈，我真的很想大声骂 WTF ！！！
The one should call me but never shown up... but end up is He calling me and asked for a date !
HEY ! I am a girl ! I have feeling ! Why can't treat me softly ? Why never think of I am that type of girl can cry till never stop ? And I can't bear with this feeling till I need to type all out to release it. One whole day, never seen me at all... I feel like wanna just disappear myself and you will not able to see me anymore. I hate this. I hate being neglected, I hate.

Jesus, YOU ARE MY KING.

Hallelujah ! Lord, once again you touched my heart !
Praise The Lord ! Once again you reminded me !
You're my heavenly Father. You're my king.
I'm forgiven because you were forsaken.
I'm accepted, you were condemned.
The amazing love brought me here to this world.
The amazing love keep me alive and believing.
Because You died and rose again !
I know it's true. Jesus !
It's my joy to honor You.
In all I do, I honor You.