:'(

你真的很过分，说话可以那么伤人
说话前可以想想我吗？
可以懂我多一点吗？
懂我很难吗？
为什么每次你都只会问＂那我呢＂？
可以先解决问题才来说你自己吗？我都不曾提起过＂那我呢＂！
可以别把事情想的那么负面吗？站在我立场想好不好？
可以不要误解我的意思吗？对我有信心好不好？我需要被你了解！
我要的很简单..我真的伤了..真的很伤。之前我都没说过我伤呢...

Not a dream, You are.

Lots of words I keep in my heart, always thought you will understand me even I am silent.
Lots of feelings I show in my ways, always thought you will know me very well.
Lots of thoughts I never told you, always thought you will get me even I am quiet.
But, all these just too much of expectations and get to disappointments.
Not to blame one of us but I am just too much.
Should get into your way -> simple and easy that's enough for both loving couple.

CHONG EE LING is a kind of girl needs a lot of secure and protective person.
That's why she always hide in the blanket or keep hugging the bolster.
She likes to being understand and being loved.
That's why hers expectations always involved.
She likes to stay around with loved ones.
Not because of lonely and she doesn't scare of being alone. But she likes to be with you.
She likes to eat delicious yummy food not even care about the price but she cares about do you have the same taste with her.
She likes to being care and care for the loved ones. 
If being rejected, disappointment will come in to her minds.
She likes to think a lot of matters. 
Not because of sensitive but it's about emotional.
She loves you and you should know this.

The answer you wanted to know : If you walk away, if ever you walk away that door... I promise that you will never see me when you return back.
Not that I doesn't want to hold you tight, but you're prepare to leave, aren't you ?? 
You've brushed your teeth, washed your face, changed to a nice outing clothes, comb your hair and at last you packed your little bags. Do not tell me, you aren't prepare. I see you and I feel you. I am crying at that moment, who knows right ? Because I seem hard-hearted. But I always wish you will know me, know what I'm thinking... ...I always thinking about you, me -> US. What we gonna be... I visited your families and I wish they accepted but... I still wish and hope. I do not have confidence, I need you. Can't you see ?

P/s I am not blaming you sweetheart. I just want to let you know I always thinking about you, me and us. I need you to get me all the times, I need lots of protection and you should know. Lastly, YOU should never compare with my ex. I always treat you who you are. I never take you nor compare with the previous one. 117days for ex. We are more than that, aren't we ? All the love being showed, all the feelings being told... seriously, you shouldn't keep it while argument occur. Think back, how sweet we are, how happily we are, how blissful we being through. 

Hey, I'm so thankful for having you in my life.
No one else loves me like you do
No one else sees me like you do
No one else knows me like you do
You're such a wonderful for me.

I viewed your previous pictures, and I saw you're holding someone's hand *grabbing*
A sudden sour pop up in my heart again. Once again jealousy, Once again disappointment that somebody wasn't me.

Hey, can I be the only one you will grab ?
Can I be your only one ?
Can I not to be alone like "EVA" ?
Be with me.

每一次的吵架，每一次都是怎样的结局？
我不曾说过要放手或要结束
只有你有那个想法
你累了吗？大概是累了吧。

都是因为我，你的生活没自由没色彩
如果你接受的是LAWLEE不是我，现在你大概是幸福的生活
如果我变成回忆，让他陪你。。。

你说：“你是骗子，你以前不是这样的“
哈哈，你句话是多么的伤人啊
哈哈，我的心是多么的疼啊
哈哈，你是多么的不懂我啊
张依玲喜欢被人疼
会发脾气，但是希望有人哄
你不懂吗？
我的喜欢，我的爱，我讨厌的，
你一点都不懂吗？
我骗了你什么？我现在是怎样的样子？

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 


多久没见的朋友，多久没回家
哈哈，你都拿来跟我作比较了是吗？
我的地位永远都是要和你的朋友们，家人们作比较才懂得的排名。
这个月，我排名第一位因为你没能出去见朋友，没能回家。
哈哈，原来啊。。。我是多么没人懂啊~ 

为什么总让你自己受伤

为什么总说你自己没用

你说给不了我安全感

为什么不努力到你做到为止？

你说总让我等待

为什么没让不再等待？

你说给不了我喜欢的东西

为什么不努力？

还记得第一次被你吻着

是多么让我相信你就是

还记得第一次被你抱着

是多么让我相信你就是

还记得第一次被你牵着

是多么让我相信你就是

那个爱我的人。

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你说要把误会说清楚

我说不出口，心好疼

你打我，推我，咬我

提醒了我还活着。

亲爱的，我又多么的爱你

你看不见么？

你感觉不到吗？

你不懂我吗？

我爱你、没有什么目的，只是爱你!
一辈子、就做一次自己!
这一次、我想给你全世界!
这一次、遍体鳞伤也没关系!
这一次、用尽所有的勇敢!
这一次、可以什么都不在乎!
但只是这一次就够了!
因为生命再也承受不起这么重的爱情。
这一次、我愿意为你丢弃自尊、放下矜持、不管值不值得、不管爱得多卑微。

抱歉

爱是不需努力 爱是自然而然 对不起，让你那么辛苦 对不起，让你那么努力 对不起，让你哭了... 我的介意似乎太过分了 我的敏感似乎太过分了 我的一切似乎太没用了 这么努力的你若有天你累了 我该怎么办？？

你不知道的事。

爱我吗？ 亲爱的你，甘愿自己写给自己看也不说给我听... 亲爱的你，甘愿抱住小黄鸭子也不抱住我... 亲爱的你，甘愿不把话说清楚就将让误会继续.. 你说爱了，可是还不是一样受伤。 你说爱了，可是我们都孤单。 你说爱了，可是还是一个人。 我真的介意了，好介意我的地位 我真的吃醋了，为什么没留时间给我 我真的生气了，为什么什么都不说 可以抱住我吗？即使我推开你.. 可以说清楚吗？即使我生气你..