my 2011 background

Memories (happiness,joyfulness, blissfulness)
Hardships (peoples, temptations, tests)
Feelings ( love, joy, sorrow)


I stood up and walked alone sometimes.
I hide myself and disappear in public.
I learnt a lot through the pain I had.


The peoples I met
The problems I resolved
The pain I endured


Thankful for my family back me up
Thankful for Lord Jesus loving me always
Thankful for sending angels around me
Thankful for those specials who accepted me

Currently, slowly my life filling up with color
because of those specials.
Hey, I love ya... My Hope now here.2012 :)

简简单单是我要的

不等待不期待的我

不嫉妒不介意的我

真正心会微笑的我

很自然

很轻松

很幸福

很简单

我要当这样的我。

I am foolish.

do i feel something special inside of you ?

do i know what you really think of me ?

i just can't deny what feels so right.

when it comes to you, whatever i do,

love always play the part of fool.

dare i follow my heart ?

should i just follow my heart ?

i can't say i love you & i can't say i don't.

A little ME.

I hope can last longer although couldn't last forever.

I hope can goes well although couldn't  go smoothly.

I hope can remember well although couldn't be forgotten.

I hope I hope I hope.

I love can be together although will be separated some day. 

I love can be loved although might be hated by you.

I love can be cared although might be neglected by you.

I love I love I love.

I wish you'll think of me no matter when is it.

I wish you'll be with me no matter where is it.

I wish you will.

I wish I wish I wish.

I like being protected. 

I like being understand.

I like being me in front of you.

I like I like I like.

Here you are, I hope I love I wish and I like.

Just a dream

Had a dream so real compare to previous dreams.

Started to wonder what's the meaning of that dream.

Because of the realness.

Piano, staircase, 2 living rooms, 

bed, wardrobe & a purse .

Although you never appear in the dream.

But your footprint exist.

What we gonna be ?

Will I be yours ? 

No one knows.

It's just a dream.

UGLY TRUTH

I do not have the responsible to help you out.

I let you to be used because I take you as friend.

I willing to do so. 

But not too over ! 

If you dislike

shut your mouth and you may just walk off.

Who cares about the dress code ? 

We came is sincere from the heart. 

What's so important about the outlook ?

WE're committee.

WE want the event go smoothly.

Seriously, 

I don't have the confident for helping you out anymore. 

Don't spread all the rumours around.

I am who I am, I helped you.

You don't appreciate then that's it.

No second chance for you.

So sorry I am not gonna trust you like last time.

All's about UGLY TRUTH !

What should I have said ?

No, I can't said any not even a word.

Feeling comes from deep of my heart.

Hurt easily comes from your mouth.

It takes a while to got hurt,

but it needs longer time to get heal.

So sorry for being weak 

for not enduring the tears

for not being a selective listener. 

I am who I am.

I did not need any judgement from you.

Oh my dear Tears...

please keep it and stop dropping !

Wisdom ? =D

My Left Lower Wisdom Tooth X-Ray.

Taken before operation done. 

Surgery took about 3 hours. 

After the surgery, 

I came out with 5 stitches.

Kinda proud of myself, 

first time had sutures with me. (:

Today is the first Post Operation Day.

Left side of my face swollen.

Can only have soft diet (cold) for few days.

E.g. Cold porridge, Cold drinks ( milk, yakult, milo )                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                      

Left side swollen.

See the different ? (:

我们有缘份吗？

看到我想跟你说的吗？

Everyone looking for their prince charming/princess.

 to have a wonderful lovely fairytale life.

A promise, a kiss and a ring 

to prove that you will love each other 

no matter what happens till 

the life stops.

God made man not to be alone

that's how woman made from man's rib 

&

both of them become 1 flesh.

2 is better than 1.

Ecclesiastes 4:9-10

21.09.2011 special night.

 

Hey, I'm studying duh..

with cup of coffee as well..

Of course with my FB on.:P

I never been like this in my life.

=D 

I've no idea what's up so strong to make me STUDY.

It is my D.I.Y notes. =) 

Nice LUNGS right ?

LOL.

The end is I got an A for the subject & one the highest mark in the class. 

I'm not that happy but I think my mom is the happiest. 

Those who loves me, for sure they'll be more happier than me.

Thanks mom, I LOVE YOU.

Forgive me for not being a good girl all the time.

傻瓜

掉下热乎乎的眼泪，
就只能靠自己擦掉。

对不起，我不可能一辈子大笑。
我还是会偷偷一个人哭。
很抱歉，我就是那么的软弱。
我不是你想象中那么好。


受伤了，自己扎。

外伤会慢慢好会，
内伤呢？
需要多久好会呢？
除了你，还有谁
会爱上我这样的女生？
你，爱我吗？

LOST are not meant to be FORGET !

You're in my MIND ! =D

 

How to know whether I am already let go the past ?

I smile ? I laugh ? I happy ?

Sometimes you're still in my mind.

This is so sad. 

How can I not to think about the past ?

It's so hard to forget you.

Oh dear, 

I know letting go is the best for us.

I am tired all alone.

No happy ending,

we aren't together.

 

3 Y - You You Yu

Be with you is my sweetest dream I ever had before.

When you sleep with me, I can listen your voice.

I can feel your touch in my dreams.

Forgive my weakness for not being strong,

when you're not around.

I feel the static when you kiss me,

I feel I can reach the sky.

Everytime we touch I get this feeling.

I long to be with you.

I need you.

I need your hug.

I need your present.

 

Please prove to me you're not leaving me alone.

Please prove to me you're loving me.

I cry because I no longer feel that I am important to you.

I cry because I no longer feel that I am the one you love.

        Please catch me.

  Please hold me.

I never told you.

 

I never told you what I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in.

 

Where I belong to, when I'm not around you

It's like I'm not with me.

Thought you know me well.

Thought you understand me well.

Thought, I thought.

And now, I'm gonna give my secret away.

I jealous when you're on the phone with xxx.

I dislike you treat me so welcome.

 

Don't ask me why I get jealous.

Don't ask me why I emo.

Don't ask me WHY.

 

Everything because of LOVE.

I just need someone to...

I just need someone to hold my hands

saying " Here we go, come with me
There's a world out there that we should see
Take my hand, close your eyes
With you right here. "

Where you kiss me 

Where I can totally depend on

Where we love.

Dear ~ I'm waiting for you.

 

='(

如何笨到底 但到底还是我
谁人待我好 待我差 太清楚
想继续装傻 却又无力受折磨

心里羡慕那些人
盲目到不计后果
我就回去别引出我泪水
尤其明知 我最爱是流泪
够绝情 我都赶我 自己出去
原谅我啊 留底只会令我更加心碎

I Will Exalt You.

Praise The Lord

For His Mercy Endures.

Thanks to heavenly dad

For knowing me so well

For giving my needs

For loving me so much.

Because of you, 

I believe FAITH can change 

I believe HOPE in future

I believe LOVE never fails.

I will call upon your name

The name above every name

JESUS !

I'm sorry.

I care because I love you. 

I jealous because I care.

I disheartened because I jealous.

I cried because I disheartened.

No matter how, 

I'll still care.

I'll still love.

Yea. This is Me.

I am who I am.

Here I am.

633..633..

I want to do my best for you.

I want to protect you.

Here I am, in this place

Now in this place I am here

to let you count on me.

If you need a place where you can run

If you need a shoulder to cry on

I'll always be there for you

I promise.

I'll be your shelter from the rain

I'll be your healer for your pain

I'll be there for time and time again

When you need someone to love you

HERE I AM.

Take my hand and I promise 

You'll never walk alone.

I'll do my best to fill you up

with all the LOVE.

HERE I AM. HERE I AM.

We're all in this together.

Please do remember be together is not a PROCESS. 

It's just a beginning.

Let's keep all the sweet memories deep in our mind and heart.

Let's appreciate everything we have.

Let's LOVE to be alive again and again.

Together is where we belong,

We're meant to support each other,

We make each other strong.

Darling, wish you all the best and have faith !

Be innovative and have confident ! 

S.A.D

Can you please don't treat me this way ?
Can you please don't dislike me ? 
My heart broken when you do this to me, do you know about it ?
Why don't you just make things clear and right ?
I'm so sad that you don't even try to justify the situation then straight away judged for death.
What should I do ?
Please tell me what you want ? No matter how much you hate me I will still standing there for you.
Although another 2 years more you will see me but I just want you to see the truth ! I'm really a good girl, don't you think so ? Tell me, what's my problem ? What's my mistake ? I want to be a better girl. Mould me ! Train me ! I don't want things becoming like this ! I don't want you to dislike me ! I don't want we became enemy ! 
Please give me a chance...

我还是我

单纯的我想要很多东西

可爱的我想要开心生活

爱笑的我想要让大家笑

爱哭的我想要一个人哭

冲动的我想要不要错过

高大的我想要被人保护

笨笨的我想要你的爱惜

聪明的我想要一生爱情 

贪吃的我想要吃你煮的

我还是我，爱让我活着。

你呢？

Tell Me.

Tell me what makes you think I am bad ? 

Tell me what makes you think I am not qualify ?

Tell me why you treating me this way ?

Tell me why you can't accept the way I am ?

Please tell me because I am a human being like you do.

Please think of my situation as well if you're fair enough. 

Please understand my situation as well if you're kind enough. 

Please accept me as well if you're understand me enough.

We are meant to support one another in this world. 

I should not trust on friends.

I expected that you will not be one of them.
I expected that you will not joining them talk behind of me.
I expected that you will not betray me.
I expected that you will not break my heart.
I expected that you will not treat me this way.
I expected that you will not lie to me.
I expected that you will not hurt me.
I expected that you will not taking advantage of me.

I believed that you will appreciate me.
I believed that you will be the true you.
I believed that you will be with me.
I believed that you will support me.
I believed that you will lend me the shoulder to cry on.
I believed that you will lend me the ear to listen my problems.
I believed that you will help me out from difficulties.
I believed that you will care about my feelings.

But now...all of these gone...

Oh, it's so hard for me to find a TRUE friend.



Think about it..
It is a correct thing for backstabbing your friends ?
It is a right thing for hurting your friends by this way ?
It is a correct thing for you to judge people before you judge yourself ?

The Truth.

I give you all my heart but you rip it away
You told me how much you love me
You told me how our love was meant to be
I believe you with all my heart
I thought that you were mine and I'm yours

Bacause of you, I don't believe LOVE last forever anymore
Because of you, I can't control my mind to stop thinking about you
Because of you, I just can't let you go

Lastly, the truth is I still can't let you go.

♥ HOME ♥

Is the most safety place

Is the most warm place

Is the most comfortable place

Is the most happy place

Is the most blissful place

From childhood, all of us have a blessed home

Mom & Dad

Thank you so much

Thank you for this blissful home

Thank you for all the things you have done for me

Thank you so much for everything.

Sisters & Brother

Thank you so much

Thank you for all the accommodate

Thank you for all the things you have done for me

Thank you so much for everything.

Mom,Dad,Jie and Gor...

♥ I LOVE YOU ♥