Which way is right and which way is wrong ?
Just because You created order is a man and a woman
that's why we're wrong ?
As long as we're the creatures of yours, ain't You feel satisfy ?
We never did anything which is immoral and why can't You allow us to be together ?
WHY ? Everything is in Your hand, Lord. You shall see our future and You've the responsible to guiding your creatures (children).

Accept me, Lord ! Be with me still and holy spirit enlighten my way.
To show my future path and protect my love and I.

Dear my love,

Thanks for everything, seeing you losing too much just to be with me, unhappily crying. I've nothing to do for you. Almost one year we've been together. Thanks a lot for all the while of your love, care and responsible. I shall not cause you lose your family and I shall leave. I'm sorry. But there's no other way. I wish there's a world end at 21.12.12. So that, we can end all of this together.

The reason.

A side of me that you don't know. And I wish you could know.
There's many things I wish I didn't do. I never meant to do the things to you.
So I wish you could know. That I just want you to know.
I've found a reason for me, to change that I used to be.
A reason to start over new and the reason is You.


I am sorry that I hurt you.
I wish I could take it all away.
I am not a perfect person and I continue learning to love you.
That's why I need you to hear.


A reason for all that I do.
And the reason is You.

A fight with thousand of NO's

The love that you shown out without any selfishness and secretive to your mom. I need this.
What's the love from you to me ? You compared between me and you. Selective listener of your own chosen words from the sentence I've told. I am jealous, but you can't see. I am hurt and you don't know. Family outing always making you happy even you don't want to go at the very first point. And that's the thing I care about ! You don't know. I won't say. That's my way of living. You don't understand me that's why argument and quarrel appeared in our life. Sorry for not wiping away your tears anymore, sorry for not hugging you anymore. I'm sorry for all. Crying and hurting can't make me wiping or hugging. No one know.

P/s argument and quarrel will just continue happening if nothing have been taken action.

很辛苦，心很不舒服，很酸...你懂吗？
等你，一直等待，我哭着...你懂吗？
我不重要了，你没像以前那样对我了...
没一直的打电话，也不会关心我没和你联络...
哈哈，我真的很想大声骂 WTF ！！！
The one should call me but never shown up... but end up is He calling me and asked for a date !
HEY ! I am a girl ! I have feeling ! Why can't treat me softly ? Why never think of I am that type of girl can cry till never stop ? And I can't bear with this feeling till I need to type all out to release it. One whole day, never seen me at all... I feel like wanna just disappear myself and you will not able to see me anymore. I hate this. I hate being neglected, I hate.

Jesus, YOU ARE MY KING.

Hallelujah ! Lord, once again you touched my heart !
Praise The Lord ! Once again you reminded me !
You're my heavenly Father. You're my king.
I'm forgiven because you were forsaken.
I'm accepted, you were condemned.
The amazing love brought me here to this world.
The amazing love keep me alive and believing.
Because You died and rose again !
I know it's true. Jesus !
It's my joy to honor You.
In all I do, I honor You.

:'(

你真的很过分，说话可以那么伤人
说话前可以想想我吗？
可以懂我多一点吗？
懂我很难吗？
为什么每次你都只会问＂那我呢＂？
可以先解决问题才来说你自己吗？我都不曾提起过＂那我呢＂！
可以别把事情想的那么负面吗？站在我立场想好不好？
可以不要误解我的意思吗？对我有信心好不好？我需要被你了解！
我要的很简单..我真的伤了..真的很伤。之前我都没说过我伤呢...

Not a dream, You are.

Lots of words I keep in my heart, always thought you will understand me even I am silent.
Lots of feelings I show in my ways, always thought you will know me very well.
Lots of thoughts I never told you, always thought you will get me even I am quiet.
But, all these just too much of expectations and get to disappointments.
Not to blame one of us but I am just too much.
Should get into your way -> simple and easy that's enough for both loving couple.

CHONG EE LING is a kind of girl needs a lot of secure and protective person.
That's why she always hide in the blanket or keep hugging the bolster.
She likes to being understand and being loved.
That's why hers expectations always involved.
She likes to stay around with loved ones.
Not because of lonely and she doesn't scare of being alone. But she likes to be with you.
She likes to eat delicious yummy food not even care about the price but she cares about do you have the same taste with her.
She likes to being care and care for the loved ones. 
If being rejected, disappointment will come in to her minds.
She likes to think a lot of matters. 
Not because of sensitive but it's about emotional.
She loves you and you should know this.

The answer you wanted to know : If you walk away, if ever you walk away that door... I promise that you will never see me when you return back.
Not that I doesn't want to hold you tight, but you're prepare to leave, aren't you ?? 
You've brushed your teeth, washed your face, changed to a nice outing clothes, comb your hair and at last you packed your little bags. Do not tell me, you aren't prepare. I see you and I feel you. I am crying at that moment, who knows right ? Because I seem hard-hearted. But I always wish you will know me, know what I'm thinking... ...I always thinking about you, me -> US. What we gonna be... I visited your families and I wish they accepted but... I still wish and hope. I do not have confidence, I need you. Can't you see ?

P/s I am not blaming you sweetheart. I just want to let you know I always thinking about you, me and us. I need you to get me all the times, I need lots of protection and you should know. Lastly, YOU should never compare with my ex. I always treat you who you are. I never take you nor compare with the previous one. 117days for ex. We are more than that, aren't we ? All the love being showed, all the feelings being told... seriously, you shouldn't keep it while argument occur. Think back, how sweet we are, how happily we are, how blissful we being through. 

Hey, I'm so thankful for having you in my life.
No one else loves me like you do
No one else sees me like you do
No one else knows me like you do
You're such a wonderful for me.

I viewed your previous pictures, and I saw you're holding someone's hand *grabbing*
A sudden sour pop up in my heart again. Once again jealousy, Once again disappointment that somebody wasn't me.

Hey, can I be the only one you will grab ?
Can I be your only one ?
Can I not to be alone like "EVA" ?
Be with me.

每一次的吵架，每一次都是怎样的结局？
我不曾说过要放手或要结束
只有你有那个想法
你累了吗？大概是累了吧。

都是因为我，你的生活没自由没色彩
如果你接受的是LAWLEE不是我，现在你大概是幸福的生活
如果我变成回忆，让他陪你。。。

你说：“你是骗子，你以前不是这样的“
哈哈，你句话是多么的伤人啊
哈哈，我的心是多么的疼啊
哈哈，你是多么的不懂我啊
张依玲喜欢被人疼
会发脾气，但是希望有人哄
你不懂吗？
我的喜欢，我的爱，我讨厌的，
你一点都不懂吗？
我骗了你什么？我现在是怎样的样子？

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 


多久没见的朋友，多久没回家
哈哈，你都拿来跟我作比较了是吗？
我的地位永远都是要和你的朋友们，家人们作比较才懂得的排名。
这个月，我排名第一位因为你没能出去见朋友，没能回家。
哈哈，原来啊。。。我是多么没人懂啊~ 

为什么总让你自己受伤

为什么总说你自己没用

你说给不了我安全感

为什么不努力到你做到为止？

你说总让我等待

为什么没让不再等待？

你说给不了我喜欢的东西

为什么不努力？

还记得第一次被你吻着

是多么让我相信你就是

还记得第一次被你抱着

是多么让我相信你就是

还记得第一次被你牵着

是多么让我相信你就是

那个爱我的人。

20120223

你说要把误会说清楚

我说不出口，心好疼

你打我，推我，咬我

提醒了我还活着。

亲爱的，我又多么的爱你

你看不见么？

你感觉不到吗？

你不懂我吗？

我爱你、没有什么目的，只是爱你!
一辈子、就做一次自己!
这一次、我想给你全世界!
这一次、遍体鳞伤也没关系!
这一次、用尽所有的勇敢!
这一次、可以什么都不在乎!
但只是这一次就够了!
因为生命再也承受不起这么重的爱情。
这一次、我愿意为你丢弃自尊、放下矜持、不管值不值得、不管爱得多卑微。

抱歉

爱是不需努力 爱是自然而然 对不起，让你那么辛苦 对不起，让你那么努力 对不起，让你哭了... 我的介意似乎太过分了 我的敏感似乎太过分了 我的一切似乎太没用了 这么努力的你若有天你累了 我该怎么办？？

你不知道的事。

爱我吗？ 亲爱的你，甘愿自己写给自己看也不说给我听... 亲爱的你，甘愿抱住小黄鸭子也不抱住我... 亲爱的你，甘愿不把话说清楚就将让误会继续.. 你说爱了，可是还不是一样受伤。 你说爱了，可是我们都孤单。 你说爱了，可是还是一个人。 我真的介意了，好介意我的地位 我真的吃醋了，为什么没留时间给我 我真的生气了，为什么什么都不说 可以抱住我吗？即使我推开你.. 可以说清楚吗？即使我生气你..

我真的想你了

Once again you appeared in front of me.

Once again I am not being myself anymore.

Once again I left nothing with me.

Once again you should know I am missing you truly.

Wish you're with me once I open my eyes.

I wish I wish.

Just a wish.

Always.

Me and you.

:'( You took my heart with you and I left body.

看着你的背影慢慢离开
眼泪也慢慢地往下流了
身体装着一颗舍不得的心


亲爱的，我真的想你了...
怎么办 ？我哭了...
一直告诉自己，你很快会回来...
可是我还是哭了，很想念你，真的。

原来想念是这么痛的
原来你活在我身上所有的角落
原来想见不能见真的很让人难过

hey sweetheart, I wish you were here. I wish to see you now. I long to get a hug from you.

hey sweetheart, I think of you no matter what I'm doing and I don't feel like doing anything except You.

hey sweetheart, I LOVE YOU.

你知道吗？

被你担心，被你抱着
被你吻着，被你看着
被你管着，被你疼爱
有你的爱，我真幸福。

亲爱的，我爱你是真的。
让我一直陪着你好吗？
让我给你爱爱好吗？
让我给你抱抱好吗？
让我做你的宝贝好吗?

My Number is 3.

我排第三 ... ...
至少有我 ... ...

我没信心 ... ...
去相信你 ... ...

在朋友面前，你对我好陌生 ... ...

你说过的话，我会当真 ... ...

我会记得，我的排名 ... ...

我可以的，我会的 ... ...

一个人哭就可以了 ... ...

一个人把介意吞了 ... ... 

一个人心酸就好了 ... ...

对不起，打扰你了 ... ...

谢谢你，至少我是第三。 

I love how your eyes close whenever you kiss me.

I love how you miss me whenever I'm away from you.

I love the way you treat me.

I love your heart beats when I'm holding you.

I love how you think of me without being told to.

I love the way you touch me.

But the most all I love is the way 

YOU LOVE ME.

Thank you, my sweetie doink.

Because of you, my life is full of light.

庸猪... ... ='[

可以给我多点的时间吗 ?

可以陪我多一点吗 ?

期待，等待，真的不好受... ...

可是又能怎样 ?

一个人抱住有你的香味的抱枕

一个人等你回来给我个温暖的拥抱

一个人期待你会和我吃每天的晚餐

一个人期待那么多

一个人等待那么久

可是又能怎样 ?

没有要责怪你的意思

因为我知道你不可能永远陪我

没有要你放手的意思

因为我比你想象中还要爱你

可是又能怎样 ?

我遮盖不到我的伤心 

而还伤了你脆弱的心

我真没用 !!!

我真欠打 !!!

我讨厌我 !!!

 

What the most do you afraid of ?
What makes you so scared ?

Not afraid of anything
Not scare of anything
Just wish you're alright.
Just wish you're still with me.

The most I afraid of is beloved collapse in front of my eyes.
The most I scare of is losing my dearest of you.
I close my eyes and pray to keep you alright with me all the time.
I close my eyes and pray, pray...

Just needed you're alright.

我的梦想 - YOU

渴望和你在一起到未来.

很想和你装饰我们的家.

你说的我都愿意去...

你说的我都会相信 ...

你要的爱很简单...

我爱你也很简单...

因为... ...

你比自己更重要 .

我的最大幸福是发现了我爱你 !!

细腻的喜欢慢慢轻易闯进我的心门 ~

Thanks doink... for not pushing me away and leave me.

Thanks doink... for choosing to love me the way you're.

Thanks doink... for hugging me so tight whenever I'm tired.

Thanks doink... for kissing me to prove that you're in love with me.

Thanks doink... for trusting me all the while.

Thanks doink... for loving me all the while.

Thanks doink... for everything.

Dearest baby doink... 

I love you, I love the way you being yourself.

I miss you, I miss you every day and night.

Wo ai ni doink ! MUACKS ! =)

Who am I to you ?

天离地有多高 ?

东离西有多远 ?

别因为觉得自己不配

而离开

因为你不懂她对你的爱有多深

她不曾嫌弃

她不曾要离开

她不曾... ...

dear baby doink, 

tell me what do you want me to do ?

what else I can do ?

I'm afraid all alone..

afraid of losing you...

afraid you saying sorry...

can you please hold me tight ?

can you please don't ever leave me ?

Trust me.

My baby doink,

I will stand by you.

I will hold you tight.

I will fight your fight.

I will help you through.

I won't let you go.

I won't let you down.
I am here to catch you.

I would find you.

Time will prove my love to you. :)

Love you, my baby doink.

... I never told you what i should have said ...

I miss those eyes.

I miss you kiss me at night.

I miss the way we sleep.

Like there's no sunrise.

Like the taste of your smile.

I miss the way we breathe.

I never told you.

I held it in.

I miss everything about you.

You make it hard to see where I belong to.

When I am not around you, it's like I am not with me.

I never told you.

I'm loving you.

I miss everything about you.

Without you.

U smile I smile =')

什么是对的爱情？
什么是错的爱情？

该放手或该坚持？
是
别人的建议或自己的决定？

很抱歉走进你的世界
很抱歉爱上你的一切
很抱歉搞乱你的所有
很抱歉让你烦恼
很抱歉让你辛苦
很抱歉让你心酸
很抱歉让你心痛

对不起·。。。
亲爱的，若你觉得累了，
你要分开，我不怪你。。。
就让我一个人。。。
一个人。。。
一个人。。。

你要什么，
若我能给，
我一定给。
只要你笑。

我只要我们不分开
我只想我们在一起


若我想要的却不是你要的。。。
我愿意让步。。。
只要你是开心的笑。。。
你要什么，我都给。。。

The only You.

你给我的是幸福

我怕的是失去你

亲爱的，无论现在或永远
我不会再害怕结果
我不会再拼命逃躲
你就是我最亲爱的
我唯一的
我专属的
我最爱的
刺猬

... ...

亲爱的，为什么认定我会离开你 ？
亲爱的，为什么说你是我的负担？
亲爱的，为什么爱我却不敢说呢？
亲爱的，简简单单当我亲爱的好吗？

只想和你在一起
只想爱上你一人
只想给你我的所有
很想很想很想爱你

舍不得离开你
脑子都是你
很爱很爱你
却不懂要如何表达

答应我不可以"少了我"的习惯
答应我不会离开我
不可以把依赖减少
不可以把我推开
不可以不爱我... ...

I'm sorry...

我在意你对他有多好
我吃醋他对你有多好
我介意你想起他的好

我害怕
我胆小
我不想
失去你


p/s 谢谢你的喜欢

Me gustas became Te amo...

Lying with you so close to me

It's hard to fight these feelings when it's so hard to breathe

So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms

It's never felt so real and never felt so right

My doubts fade away when I'm kissing you

Whole day just think of you

Promise me you're not going to leave me

Promise me you're not going to suffer for me

 

I...♥...YOU

Please forgive me.. I just don't know what to do.

I just wanna be with you and own you alone.

Me gustas...

真不忍心看见你为我掉泪

我的泪悄悄流出却不想哭

那时的我想把你占为己有

怎么办 怎么办 ??

怎么办 怎么办 ??

不想失去你

不想离开你

只想和你在一起

手牵手

一直走

亲爱的，你累了让我背你...

亲爱的，这该要怎么办呢???

我说的,你不相信
心碎的感觉
(心酸，掉下眼泪）

我喜欢你是真的。

心很酸，
头脑一直一直想着你，
想你一定责怪自己了。。
想你一定要离开我了。。
我不要你一个人！
我不要你不信我！
你不喜欢我至少相信我喜欢你。
可以相信我吗？
:'<

我要你 say YES, you're mine.

我是我，别把我当成别人。。
你害怕，是为失去或拥有？？
怕自己爱上我还是喜欢我？？

我答应的，一定做到。
我能给的，一定给你。
无论你的依赖有多少，
我会尽我力量给你靠。

笑容只是个表情，
而不是我的心情。

我喜欢你根本不需“何德何能”，
因为我连你的不喜欢也喜欢了！

不要让害怕带走你好吗 ？？
让我牵着你一起走好吗 ？？

刺猬

亲爱的，我不懂你已经过那么多的伤害
亲爱的，我没当你是刺猬因为我喜欢你
亲爱的，我想当你的亲爱的想给你所有

无论以后你如何对我，我都不会怪你
因为一开始是我选择了你当我的亲爱
别让害怕带走你好吗 ？？

你的依赖不会是我的负担或是负累
因为我有很阔的肩旁给你用一辈子
你累了，我会哄你睡
你伤了，我会抱住你
你难过，我会带你走
你不会一个人因为你有我。

非诚勿扰。

You're the one I wish to be with...

To part as friends, I failed to let feelings show
Those times we spent together is all that I can think about
If you knew what hides beneath my smile
(It's you)

Fight me and not mine...

Living in a immoral world

Living in a insecure world

Living in a iniquitous world

No matter how strong

No matter how tough

No matter how sturdy

I am. I still lose.

Stranger,

I ain't cursing you !

I wish the best for you.

Your judgement will come one day !

You'll totally regret for the thing you've done !

Be prepared if you wanna be evil in this world.

You'll definitely need to disburse more than YOUR LIFE !

Please think twice who you wanna BE !

P/s If you appear in front of me again, I will definitely will PUNCH YOU.

F*** Off, Stranger !

Open the eyes of my heart

Make me say out my love

Dare to make me be yours

Let me listen to your heart

Get to know that you love me 

Comply the promises you keep

Doink ! Don't you know I long to be yours !

我喜欢上你了啦 ! >(@@)<

You've no RIGHT to take it away !

You never think about the students !

You never know what's the meaning of "student" !

You never understand what student needs !

You never stand for student's right !

Seriously, you have no qualification to be the head of department !

Don't you think you're too over for this changes ??

You taking away our precious student's weekend

You sending us to hospital for theory

You putting us under shift and tagging with staff nurses

We aren't a qualification staff nurse

It's so unfair we've to bear the stress 

that staff nurses have !

It's so unfair we've no weekend

to spend our time at all !

It's so unfair we've to tag with staff nurses

Staff nurses ≠ clinical instructors !!

The difference between a student and a worker is

HOLIDAYS and WEEKEND ! 

Other company worker they've their holiday in weekend !

Don't try to use us like a worker 

because YOU never pay us at all !

I am a student of the UNIVERSITY so

I do not agree to have my theory classes @ hospital !

Do not try to make it like last time nursing school did

because now is 21st Century 2012 ! 

AND you do not live at your PAST TENSE anymore ! 

Wake up, NOW is NOW ! 

Stop comparing between Old times !

It's nothing to do with HOSPITAL POLICY ! 

POLICY = just rules with words made by HUMAN !

It's nothing to do with EXPERIENCE !

If we learned, we practiced with our enthuthiasm 

and we've skill & knowledge 

I believe that we'll have the EXPERIENCE !

Open up your mind 

Open up your heart

LISTEN TO US.

I please not to ruin my nursing life

I please let us back to NORMAL like we did last time

I please to understand us.

YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO TAKE AWAY WITHOUT OUR PERMISSION !

Indeed, WEEKEND is belong to students !